WeLcOmE tO mY wOrLd

no fear

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sat, 01 Dec 2007 22:45:01 GMT

so, i had a great night, and it of course has to lead to a not so good day. but whatever. im tired of letting things get me down. anyway, i just wish that i had my bestests closer so we could go out and have fun and feel the way that our boys feel and make them feel the way we feel. i just know that i want to have fun! and of course be happy, so in the mean time to make me happy:

Four Things You May or May Not Know About Me
This one is a bit different from the rest. Four things about me that
you may or may not have known in no particular order. The directions
are at the end.

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. babysitter
2. ABC Warehouse
3. Student
4. Chrysler

B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
1. wedding crashers
2. knocked up
3. dodge ball
4. just like heaven

C) Four places I have lived:
1. Center Line, MI
2. Warren, MI
3. Shelby Twp., MI
4. Mansfield, OH

D) Four TV Shows that I watch:
1. That 70s Show
2. Grounded for Life
3. MTV--Tila Tequila
4. King of Queens

E) Four places I have been:
1. Germany
2. Costa Rica
3. Canada
4. Austria

F) Four people who email you: (regularly)
1. Co-Workers
2. Family
3. Jenn
4. no one really emails

G) Four of my favorite foods:
1. crab
2. bk burgers
3. Mashed potatoes
4. pudding

H) Four places I would rather be right now:
1. up north
2. florida
3. germany
4. anywhere...tropical

I) Four different friends I think will respond:
1. who
2. knows
3. who
4. cares

J) Things I am looking forward to this year:
1. presents
2. snow
3. cathrin coming to visit
4. school being over this semester

RETURN DIRECTIONS:
Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun.
Hit forward, or copy and paste into a new bulletin, delete my answers and
type in your answers. Then send this to a whole bunch of people you
know INCLUDING the person who sent it to you. The theory is that you will
learn? a lot of little known facts about those who know you. Remember
to send it back to the person who sent it to you.

update...

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 06:18:34 GMT

ive been super depressed lately. i sleep a lot, dont want to eat, very moody, unhappy. blah. i feel awful because Justin has been trying so hard and i still am unhappy. he was so sweet too and cleaned up the house and lit candles for me and offered to order pizza for us. and i bitched and complained....errrr. i felt so awful with how i was treating him i had to get out of the house and take a walk. when i came back i apologized and just pretty much let him know it has nothing to do with him doing anything wrong and its just me taking things out on him. ive been so down about my grandpa, my ferret, and then jenni's bf broke up with her and im helping her deal with her pain and it just brings up my hurt feelings of when justin broke up with me. at the same time, im sucking at life and school. i need money, and a life. im just so happy that justin is here for me as much as he can be lately. im so sick of being alone, and my friends who are supposed to be my closest ones who dont even talk to me or check up on me. i try so hard to keep my friendships and for what. so that i have friends who careless about me? i get walked all over. if a bunch of shit was happening with one of my friends, im there. i flipping drove two hours to grand rapids to sit in my friends car and drive back home with her. i dont know what friend would do that for me. so i spent over four hours in driving and i didnt ask for anything. whatever. im just venting. all iknow is that im going through a lot of hard times and feel like i dont have anyone. it doesnt help living out here where no one is. oh well. im done.

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Tue, 29 May 2007 14:11:10 GMT

so i have no one to really talk to some im turning to this thing...

my best friend is home in MI and i cant wait to see her! but im kinda shocked. i called her friday knowing she had plans but i figured they weren't gone yet or maybe they were driving where she could take for a min. well anyway she hasnt called me yet...and its tuesday. Idk if she is mad at me or what....

i havent dont anything lately...at least not fun. i am one of my aunts pregnancy coaches and so she is due any day so i have to stick around the area. its driving me crazy that i cant do anything, i wanna go up north, go to cedar point, go clubbing in st. clair shores or somewhere not around here. the farthest i go is to work and back!!!!!!!! ugh...

me and julia have been working out. i joined a gym a few weeks ago. i was sooo excited, i have to get in shape for next year (my wedding). well julia left for new york and i decided to go alone and work with the trainer, she literally kicked the shit out of me and i couldnt walk for three days, then i was so busy with wedding stuff i couldnt go. so i havent gone for a week now and i now feel once again how i did before i started the gym...

speaking of wedding stuff....finally got the chapel, reception place, found a dress i like, colors i like, everything, cake, booking stuff, dj, photography, videography, all that crap...yay me!

now on to my stinken fiance. god he pisses me off. i swear this weekend has been soo shitty. he decides to go hang out with his buddies, for the past two nights, (i had my cousin and her friend over) so anyway. he goes out these two nights, makes plans with me, doesnt call. i swear, i know hes all excited to show off the dunebuggy cuz he finally got it going but two days of not talking really, and not seeing each other, not coming home at night is TOO much. im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed at him. that i could cry right now. of course there is more too it but no point in details, just upsets me more. but yeah

other than that life been really shitty this past week and a half....so im hoping things will start turning around before i pull out my hair.

the gym

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Fri, 04 May 2007 23:27:59 GMT

so today me and julia went up to the gym so i could sign up....im really excited cuz i have to work out and lose weight for my wedding and personal issues. anyway. i was proud of myself. i was kicking ass! doing all kinds of stuff...really pushing myself right...well after the first two sets of lounges i felt sick. i wanted to hurl so i went to get water. anyway i came back and told our trainer i felt sick. she asked what i was feeling and told me to sit down. well apparently i should have ate more than a bowl of cereal before i went to work out. my face was pale and my lips were blue. julia was worried. so the next thing i knew i was on the bench and couldnt open my eyes. i was going to faint. i dont remember much. but i heard the trainer saying do u trust me. she lifted me and put me on the floor. they gave me drinks and whatnot and were paranoid. i felt soooooooooooooooooooooooooo dumb. so anyway, my working out session was cut short so i had to watch julia hahaha. i felt so gay. story of my life!

free dog

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sun, 08 Apr 2007 19:22:02 GMT

my aunt is giving away her dog, he is a little over a year. on the bigger side, he is a chow/shepard. he is really pretty...chocolate with green eyes. anyone interested let me know.

i hate seeing stray cats

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Fri, 05 Jan 2007 21:56:10 GMT

it really bothers me that i have found FOUR cats already that either have bad homes or are really strays. it also bothers me that none of which have collars, tags or anything stating that they are someones pet. NOR do any of which are neutered or spayed. that really bothers me. i have one at my door now. all bloody in the face, blood dripping on my porch, that is flipping sad to me. i cant stand it. i gave it can food. what do i do. i cant call the animal control they will prob put it down. i cant stand this. its sad to me. wtf. yeah so now im about to make a flyer with all the pix of the cats that come to my house and see if anyone claims them. if they dont those cats will be up for adoption through the Animal Welfare Society shelter.

anyway my cold is getting better, yesterday was my first day back to work in a while, i feel really dizzy after taking cold pills, i cant eat, my stepgpa died, so i have his funeral on monday, i start school this week, i have to clean the house, yesterday was my man's 22'nd b'day, i have no minutes left on my phone, i went over by 106, mother fucker. anyway im not feeling good. im going to go lay down

it was a 9-4pm job drinking jello shots today

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Fri, 15 Dec 2006 02:56:10 GMT

So last night i was restless cuz i knew today would be pretty easy at work. Today is our last day there till the new year! So of course we had our xmas party. Man i was soo stuffed. I had sooo much fun. I was laughing so hard all day. I came home and my cheeks still hurt.

the bad part is that i was running way late for work. I had to find something xmas'y and then get my santa hat and all that. i made it just on time. Then i had to carry in five two liters, and left my safetly glasses in my car and had to run all the way back for them with the pop. it was cool though i had like ten jello shots yummy. other than that im sore, im tired but it was a good day!

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Tue, 31 Oct 2006 16:21:10 GMT

happy halloween be safe....

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sun, 29 Oct 2006 01:43:46 GMT

im sick

yuck

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Oct 2006 03:47:26 GMT

ewwwwwwwwwwwwww, just stepped on a huge slug......................ugh!

Andrea comes home soon

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sat, 30 Sep 2006 20:06:07 GMT

i cant wait for Andreaica to come home, though we only are hanging out for one day, im excited. she just got a dog and its super cute from the pic she sent hehe. im bored, and i have a lot to do, i hate going to the store, by myself. well i guess i got to get going. i just cant wait for andreeee to come home!

so many stories, not enough time.

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Fri, 30 Jun 2006 04:40:23 GMT

so much has been going on lately...i will spill all the news shortly, but on another note my mom is getting married technically today....friday............bah! oh well i have to sleep. been up for 24hr. its not fun.

depressing day.....i guess

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Mon, 12 Jun 2006 01:54:25 GMT

so i had a nice weekend. i did a lot compared to previous weekends.

Thurs.: i had to work, it was a super long day. but i had fun hanging out with crystal, we went to the mall and looked for outfits and then went to stake-n-shake. we came back to my house and booked the hotel for friday. she stayed for a bit then left.

Friday: i did some errands, cleaned the tanks of my fish and frogs, cleaned the ferret cage, then tried to clear up things for that night. i waited to see andrea and we went to meijers. we bought booze and chips and dip. so after i went to the hotel and we put all the junk in there and went back to my house so i could get ready. crystal came over a few min later and then us three went up to the bar. lauren came too. then justin and jeremy came then dan and paul. we all had a blast

that was until...........these stupid fuckers wanted to start a fight with justin and jeremy. so yeah the night got ugly. we closed the bar then headed to the hotel. it was just me andrea and crystal going to the hotel. yeah jeremy and justin hoed us out and went back home. so we had dan and paul come over. we all drank and jumped around. i hurt my ankle. it hit the nightstand

andrea and me were the only two to stay in the hotel. we were woken up to the cleaning lady knocking at the door. we were soooo tired we didnt go to bed till 6ish her and i kept talking about all the crazy things that happened and just funny stuff in general. so at almost noon we headed back to my place and she left to help prepare for hollys party.

Sat.: so nothing happened the way it should have on sat. i was sooo tired. i stayed outside and hung out with jeremy. i was bored so while he was fixing his car i was out there trying to help. we were waiting for justin to get home and were hungry so we ordered a pizza. we went to go get it and drove to get his part for his car in the ghetto. some kids were trying to fight us. and then some old lady walked by...she looked homeless and scary. she was staring at us then jeremy asked if i saw what he did. i said no and he said her neck was messed up and looked like someone took a grater to her neck. ew good thing i wasnt eating at that moment. then we drove by a garage sale and saw a huge throw rug with a jamaican border and a huge pot leaf in the middle. the rest of black. he wanted to get it. ....figures. then we came back and ate justin came home. then i left for my mom surprise bacheloret party.

the party was boring as hell. crystal was there at least. i drove with my aunt and gma and great aunt. but yeah they didnt want to leave when i did so i was stuck. my mom was sooo happy i was there. so yeah i missed hollys party, linas party and just hanging out with andrea. i was really disappointed. so i texted andrea telling her what was going on. i didnt leave my moms party till almost 11pm. i didnt know of anything else going on and found out a bunch of people were going to be at katies apt. so we all went out there and hung out. boring again. it was nice to see katie and kelly but still very bored. so finally i came home with justin about two am ish. i was pooped.

Sun.: i slept in....ish again. i was woken up by justins dad to tell me my ferrets were loose running around. so we had to figure out which door they got out of. and then i jumped back in bed. woke up at 10:30am. i was sooo tired the whole day. then when i got up luna called and asked if i could watch her dog while they had her sisters family party. so of course i said yes cuz i love that dog. so then jeremy came over to get some part from justins work. he wanted the discount. so we talked to him for a bit then he left and will return tomorrow to work on yet another car. so when lunas dog came over murphy wanted to eat him. so i took him to my house and he pooped on my moms brandnew carpet and then i took him to justins and had to sit outside with him cuz he would bark and whine if i wasnt with him. then i locked murphy away to bring him in and put him in a room let murphy out ran in the room with her dog. we took and hour and a half nap. then when she came and got him at sixish my dad came over on his new harley. so he took me for a ride and we went to check out his new house......its nice. i liked his other one 592485938579485749574395794385794357 better. other than that he took me for an icecream. then brought me home. i sat for two min then justin came home i took him to the house to show him and then came home. hes in a horrible mood....yes! im so excited for that. so he went to my house to eat pizza. while i sit her on the comp. oh well. maybe he needs that time to cool down.

now i have to get ready for work in the am and relax cuz im worn out...andrea left today...i didnt even get to say bye. crystal leaves tomorrow and i wont get to say bye either. i wish they could stay home i have more fun when they are around.

PS. IM REALLY SORRY ANDREA ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO GO TO HOLLY'S PARTY AND DO MO CHEESE WITH YOU. im really upset i didnt get to say bye to u either. i had a great time on friday with you and i miss talking to you like we used to hehe. but either way i cant wait for the next time you come home and we can have a party. or something better. who knows. i will miss you i hope you made it home safely. and i will ttys.

today it looks lke crap outside

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Tue, 30 May 2006 19:37:35 GMT

well i went to OU and worked out my schedule. that makes me feel good considering i had to be done asap. i have forever to go but i dont want to think of it that way. i am just so blah trying to work, have school, maintain relationships, save money for a house and wedding. its just so ahhhhh.

this friday i take my kitty to get her stitches removed and take dottie for her shots. hmmm. well other than that Andrea leaves today.

i didnt get to see her. but i cant wait till she comes home next week. im super excited. my fav show...grounded for life is coming on soon. hehe. i love that show. as of now im going through bills and checking emails and being bored. im going to get my hair trimmed. luna's mom will do it for me hehe. we are also going to tan and then later im going to take a walk. i have my nikepoo here hehe. i stole him. next i need to steal boo boo and my dirtbike.

well im going to get ready for my show....

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sun, 28 May 2006 14:29:57 GMT

Tell 6 things about yourself and then tag six more people to do the same, no tag backs.

1. i love watching disney channel, thats so raven, suite life of zach and cody, phil of the future haha.

2. im engaged and plan to get married june 21, 2008

3. i have a myspace.... myspace.com/ps7mofofo

4. i worked 50 hours this week, my usual is only 20

5. Im so sick of school, i never want to go back

6. i need to paint my nails, lose weight and get a tan

I tag--Andrea, cheerchump5, earthshattered,shadowboxer34, shesatiger

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Fri, 26 May 2006 00:46:16 GMT

im working a lot this week. compared to my two days a week im working five. that would be 50 hours. i get time and a half for sat. so i will get paid for 55 hours. thats a lot of work for me. i had a great day with justin. we got food, we relaxed, we hung out, watched tv, its nice to get a moment with him. ANDREA came home today!!!!!!!!!! with the bf. but anywho. time to relax before work in the am.

oh what a night

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Tue, 23 May 2006 15:58:14 GMT

so i had a rough day at work yesterday. i feel it today thats for sure. justin and i talked about where we were planning on living. it was cute. then i passed out.

when i woke up i had a bunch of phone calls. it was my aunt mainly. i called her to find out my uncle jack aka my god father had been arrested. arrested for what u ask....for child abuse........so not like my uncle. so things have been nuts. he had a jail trial today. we will find out his bond soon to see if we can bail him out. my cousins might be taken away. which would mean my aunt would get them....that would leave her with six kids. my gosh. thats a lot.

i had to wake up super early and go to my aunts for her scope. i woke up at six and had to be there to her house by seven. blah. it was such a long day today. im thinking of going outide to enjoy the sun. on my way home from my aunts i stopped at BK and the dude working there was talking to me at the window ahha. he was hitting on me asking how my day was and staring at me and telling me my burger was going to be a wait but let the others there have the same stinken burger i was getting. i dont know it was amusing to me. then came home and came on the comp.

so girl emailed me on myspace saying that she moved here from AZ and that i remind her of her bestfriend. weird huh. cuz one of my bestfriends moved to AZ....haha idk

ANDREA COMES HOME THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im excited....hehe

oh, i get to work on extra day this week...yeeeha. and i finally got another appointment for OU. Also had to take care of my app. for the my kitten....all that is worked out!

justin comes home at four...wonder what the day is holding for us today

andrea comes home soon

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sun, 21 May 2006 23:57:07 GMT

so lots have been going on...to make all stories short here goes nothing

i applied for an extra job, at petsmart
i fell in love with cockatiel and would love to have it...but...there are too many things and pets i have
i babysat yesterday...all day. which wasnt too bad
dan fixed my comp....it took till four am
andrea is coming home this weekend! YES
i hung out with julia and we stole a cockatiel at meijers and now we have this guy that wont leave us alone
justins mom cleaned the whole basement up so that we can put panelling on the walls
i miss my dog nike and my cat boo boo
the phone is ringing
we need to find dan a girl so that he gets over that ex bitch gf of his dana
dan and me stole snails for my beta fish vase thingy
andrea is coming home in june also
we are planning a bar night and something else
i talked to julie kirkland last night. it was nice, havent heard from her in a while
i finally have my ring, i love it
my plant i work at is going under
i have to take a shower
im washing clothes
time for me to go.......

bored today

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sun, 21 May 2006 23:49:44 GMT

bored and playing around with some pix haha.

haha great times

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 May 2006 01:45:21 GMT

florida pix

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 May 2006 01:40:03 GMT

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 May 2006 01:25:47 GMT

hmmm

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Sun, 14 May 2006 04:17:51 GMT

so today was funish....the weather is shitty but oh well. its michigan. so anyway today was me and justins day. we didnt do much at all. figures. but we did get to be together finally since weve been so busy. it was nice just him and i one on one. then we got boston market and a video came. other than that the best part of the night was going to kart 2 kart with my dad justin and my dads gf.

justin came in first
i came in second
then my dad
then kathy

i creamed all the guys its was sweet. cuz it was justin then me and then a bunch of peeps we didnt know. then my dad more peeps then kathy. there were 13 in all.

it made my dad when i left to go get the time sheets and justin came out of the track area and was like all those people were asking who number 13 was. haha. he was like they were all talking about how fast u were and wouldnt let them by. then they were shocked cuz i was a girl.

that was sweet. then when the rest came out the guys came over and said i did good and stuff. it was funny. yeah me!

its raining, im tired, and bored

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Fri, 12 May 2006 19:13:03 GMT

today luna and i ran so many errands. it was fun...we were stalked. that was nuts ahha. crazy bitch. then we went to fun lovers lane. ahaha. luna was shoving dildos down her pants, jk. anyway. my stalker story:

luna and i were driving to meijers at 13 and John R. We pull into the parking lot at approx. 12:32 pm. We were in the left lane so we can turn then some crazy bitch from the right lane decides she doesnt want to go straight and turns with me! She f'ing almost hit my car! So the dumb bitch decides to stop right in front of me after i honked at her. I mean dead stop. She then is forced to move because a green vehicle was waiting behind me. As luna and i go to park the crazy bitch wants to T'bone us. so i was like wtf. I flipped the crazy bitch off. She thens pulls behind me and starts honking. Luna and i laugh. The crazy bitch is now following us around the parking lot. She is on the phone and flipping us off. So we think were in the clear when out of now where the crazy bitch strikes again. This time we were leaving Meijers. Im not about to whoop her down. So she is following us out of the parking lot. Honking, flipping us off and whatnot. Luna turns around and the crazy bitch is flipping her off. So luna freaks and i almost had to hold her back. We get to the light after turning out of the parking lot but it turned yellow. I gassed it and went through the red...in front of a cop.

HA, the crazy bitch is now stuck at the light. Thank god the cop didn't pull us over. We then totally lost her.

No we werent scared and no we werent running. I just wanted to run the crazy bitch around for a while haha.

I didnt want to fight her cuz:
1. im wearning my glasses and they fall easily off my face. i cant see anything when there off so i dont want to be whooping on Luna
2. i definitely dont want anything like that on my record when i just applied for a new job
3. it was raining and i didnt feel like getting all wet plus it was the crazy bitches fault and she was just plain crazy.

so to end the story, we lost the crazy bitch and went back to meijers.

THE END

my mother

aprilcatrow@hotmail.com — Tue, 09 May 2006 02:27:23 GMT

so i had the week off work. we had plant shut down. and ive been trying to get my stuff together to move out. well at justins there is only so much u can put in here before its too much. so i toted my stuff and started preparing it to go. this whole time ive been talking to my moms bf/fiance terry. telling him whats going on, my plans and whatnot. im not close to this guy at all. but i decided to try since my mom is marrying him in a month. so me and my mom finally talked. i told her my goals, my plans, my opinions and everything. it seemed to go fine. since we always fight and all. i actually thought we were okay. so saturday comes, and im about to go to my house to clean up more and pack more. my mom calls and says that she is bagging my shit up and that i can go through it outside. i hung up on her and drove by the house to find my WHOLE ROOM was outside. she threw all my stuff outside by the catwalk. i had no place to put any of it. and when i tried to get a storage unit they already closed for the day. my mom ruined my stuff, she broke stuff, she threw it all out, she dumped a garbage pail full of hair, toilet paper, all kinds of nasty stuff in a bag with my toothbrush, my clothes my everything. she even took my clothes out of the washer and threw them outside.

I HATE MY MOM, SHE IS A BITCH, SHE NEVER WANTS ME TO BE HAPPY. SHE MAKES ME MISERABLE. SHE IS SOOOOOO RUDE. I DONT KNOW WHY I DESERVE THIS.

now me and justin are all stressed and taking it out on each other. i have to go through over two truck loads of stuff in less than a week. how fun.

THANK U LUNA AND JULIA AND SHAWN AND HIS FRIEND JEREMY for helping me out.

i almost want to disown my mom. or divorce her or something. i dont even know if i want to go to her flipping wedding. im just thankful that justins parents are very understanding and my dad has my back. i love u all. and thank u for helping me.